Maybe there is a God above,
But all I've ever learned from love,
Was how to shoot at somebody who outdrew ya,
And it's not a cry that you can hear at night,
It's not somebody who's seen the light,
It's a cold and it's a broken Hallelujah.
I don't want to live in the past anymore. Got to push forward in to the future. But i'm not alone.
I have the right woman beside me. Some good friends to support me. And god above to protect me.
With hindsight i've seen the things that lead to my ultimate depression...but it's passed now. I can get on with my life.
We all take knocks...thats what life's about.
The real question is....can we handle them?
some of us can...and others cannot.
You have to ask yourself, which group are you in?
I've seen how sad and stupid my problems are in comparrison to the hurricane victims over the past week. Not many people know the anguish of leaving your whole life behind and trying to rebuild it. Its hard to build anything when some people keep on tearing you down.
I don't appreciate the constant judgement and criticizm...
It's not a crime to love someone...and i'll fight for my right to do so.
how hard will I fight?
I will tear down everything in my way. Whether that be my emotions, or other people. I will not give up and fade into the night...
And lets not forget...I never lose...I never have, and never will. It's in my genes.
Some things that need to be said..
Becca...
Never forget that no-one knows us like we know us. no-one loves you the ways I love you. Don't let things burden you. This is our time. Life is short and we're going to enjoy it. We'll be there to support each other through the harder times. The things we think are important now will mean nothing in the years to come. Lets dwell on what we gain, rather than what we lose...and above all else...know that I love you with all that I am, and that I will fight for you. I will love you always.
Hailz...
Youre an idiot...but I still love you. Family is so important....for a while i wasn't sure....I'd lost faith in everything. But truth be told...you inspire me.
England people..
I miss you...i miss the times we shared....but moving over here showed me the true friends I had over there...
Out of all the people I thought were true friends...only a handful keep in touch.
Some of which have even come all the way over here to be with me. Theyve had the privilige of meeting the girl I love and loved her too.
Ryan...
You are probably the biggest inspiration to me. I admire your spiritual wisdom, you're strength and your love for the lord. Yet youre still cool enough to pull off a name like steve coleman. awesome.
Mel..
I miss you being my mentor...helping me get situated. The college thing without you is daunting. Theres not a day that goes by when I don't think about you and miss you being just a 3 minute walk away.
Lyndsey..
I miss you too...i miss the endless hours of your love life problems. Maybe this year will be the one when you find your man. I'm sure it will be...and if not...who cares..cos youre a cool cat and everyone knows it.
Sam,
I miss you. Youre the best guy friend anyone could ever wish for.
that was textbook.
Victor...
...how could I forget about you. Youll have to come down to shippensburg when i have my appartment...
I wanna get back up to etown asap....so just hang in there.
People of the distant and not so distant past...
I don't miss you. At all.
to my child psyche professor...
thanks for havin 8am classes when I have a 40 minute drive to get to it. You big retard.
You grow up, you work half a century...you get a golden handshake...you rest a couple of years...and your dead...
and he only thing that makes that crazy ride worthwhile is did I enjoy it?
And in answer to this...yes....i'm going to. With Rebecca Harvey by my side, my family right behind me, and my true friends a phone call away...
Love life....it could be over tomorrow...
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